Alone- Day 1
Been alone and know that you will be alone is so unbearable.... is like a drug addict going through a cold turkey....
Its so hard to go through this...and this is only just the first day... the mere sight of couples make me want to burst into tears... when I was on the way back from the train... I feel like jumping off the train... when I finally reach the stop... I practically run and try to get back home as soon as possible... its so hard... not to think of him.. not to msg him... I'm controlling... I know I can... i need time... time will be my strength... and yet time is so long and unbearable...
My mind keep repeating- will he come back? will he come back? What if he cant come back? what will I do? What if he come back? What will I do?
Tears flow as I write this entry... It wont stop no matter how hard I try... the cool of period to me is like the end of the relationship... the end of u and me...
Its so hard to go through this...and this is only just the first day... the mere sight of couples make me want to burst into tears... when I was on the way back from the train... I feel like jumping off the train... when I finally reach the stop... I practically run and try to get back home as soon as possible... its so hard... not to think of him.. not to msg him... I'm controlling... I know I can... i need time... time will be my strength... and yet time is so long and unbearable...
My mind keep repeating- will he come back? will he come back? What if he cant come back? what will I do? What if he come back? What will I do?
Tears flow as I write this entry... It wont stop no matter how hard I try... the cool of period to me is like the end of the relationship... the end of u and me...
posted by sheepz @ 6:28 PM
1 Comments:
At 1:44 AM,
The Smiley Grouch said…
hey... life will go on. It really is not the end of the world. I know it sounds easy to say.. but its true. Time will heal all wounds. Now I think you're feeling so miserable because you lack closure. So you don't even know if you should be sad or not. So... set youself a deadline. could be one month, or two... don't set him a deadline, cuz i think he's already v stressed. but if nothing happens. you will have to be the one to initiate something. In this way, you will not feel so lost.
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